Thursday, August 31, 2006

Updating My Blog and Life

If any of you've noticed, I've updated to the blogger beta. A few months ago, I nearly all but gave up on blogger; there was no update nor change for over two years. I was waiting but none came. Fuck, this is free so why the hell should I complain? I mean there are other blogging platforms out there like and for me to pick up, right? So when this whole upgrade came up I felt that has finally woken up and decided to do something about their platform. Cool. Unfortunately, the first few days were pretty much a bitch. There were a LOT of electronic hiccups, but hey I'd rather have that than nothing at all.

What came to my mind next was the programs that were connected with the old blogger platform were all fucked up. Well if I could still get them if I wanted but I want to try this one first. I'll ride along for awhile yeah.

As for my life. I've been writing for a blogging company. My sched's on the third shift. Grave fucking yard, 11pm to 7am. I fainted and fell to the floor. Tried to get up and walk out the door but my Girl wanted me to rest instead. God bless for intelligent beautiful women, eh? Got my pay today and it's a good one. But now I'm feeling things all around my body that's not too good.

I'll be updating this blog a lot, so expect a lot of changes.

Saturday, August 12, 2006

Taorist is Raw

A friend of mine said that she likes this blog above my others because it was "raw." It makes me think that my other blogs are pretty lame and dry.

But when I think about it, she has a point--this blog is uncensored. There's no worry in structure nor design. It's straight out of my gut. No drafting nor organizing. I write whatever comes to mind: walking without going anywhere.

No mission, vision, principle.

If I seem a bit rawer than usual, don't stop me.

Let me be raw.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

The Letter Never Sent

Good morning Master,

I am leaving your stables to be free from your ever straining aura.

You have been benign to me enough that you gave me a chance to try my hand at an acquaintance skill. It is something that I can do, but choose not to. I have chosen a path that has been there for me everyday but was never taken. I am now stepping on that path, not knowing where I will end up. Yet, that is where I will be: walking with anxious anticipation at what will happen next. There will be perilous times, yes, but I will somehow deal with them and live on.

This letter is more of a way of letting the waves of writing over me than a separation from you and your kind.


Friday, August 04, 2006

One Sentence Post #1

When you've been there, it's easier to let it all go.

Monday, July 31, 2006

Chiebomatto, Ecstatic Saint, and Femeninity

Met up with a long time blog friend: Chiebo. This is the first time I personally met someone from the blogging community. She and I had an arrangement over books. She sold me two great books:

The Way of Perfection by St. Teresa of Avila
It's Only Too Late If You Don't Start Now by Barbara Sher

Why choose such "feminine" books? I chose them because they appeal to the feminine side of me. No, I am a "straight" man. I just believe that we all have different sexes within.

There are times that I want to feel open and vulnerable.

Monday, July 24, 2006

A Silver Lining with a Dark Cloud

I guess with my father's impending death, his greed knows no bounds.

As mentioned last post, I was supposed inherit a rather large and beautiful house. Me and my family were all set to transfer there around April. I guess all good news have tainted paints.

I just recently went back to get some things from back home, when my dad wanted to discuss some things regarding our transfer. So we sat down and he tells me that I will have to pay 200 dollars a month to cover all the electricity, food, and other bills. This is just way too much for me and my family. It would be like renting an expensive condo unit in the city. After the "talk", I went inside my room, disgusted and disappointed. I text my girl regarding the news. She was surprised as well. We have no idea what will happen now. We're thinking twice now. Still hoping for the best though.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Shape Shifting

I love blogging, and now I'll get paid to do it.

I've been blogging for a few years now; had an on and off love affair with the dang thing. Eventually, I got hooked. It started when people commented on my posts. Then things happened in my life: we moved out, moved in, and moved out again. I told my story about my mom and dad, how I first found out about my Girl's pregnancy, my Robyn's birth, I've been digged and SOB'd, met my Robyn's Blog Godmother, and now here it is.

The start of my writing career.